How
many times have you found yourself in some kind of large group and yet, felt
completely alone? I imagine just about everyone has been in this uncomfortable
situation at least once and probably more than once. I usually don't post a
Photo-of-the-Week the same day I took the photo, but this just seemed like a
good theme. This is the situation I found myself in today.
I
don't know if I can make the broad generalization that most families have
regular (or semi-regular) family reunion (often picnic) gatherings. I'm sure
I'm safe to say many families do this. When I was growing up, my own nuclear
family had occasional gatherings of, primarily, family members, though they
weren't actually organized and structured events. Perhaps, like many families,
birthdays, anniversaries and specific holidays were the typical motivators for
such gatherings. There are no more family gatherings (or informal reunions) in
my family. There are too few of us left, we're scattered around the U.S., I
don't know where most of them are and no one has kept in contact, to my
knowledge, for more than 30 or 40 years.
My
"outlaws" (formally my in-laws when I was married into the family) do
have semi-regular family reunions and they are normally focused around the
matriarch's birthday (the only surviving parent/grandparent/great grandparent).
Even though the family (6 brothers and 2 sisters and a plethora of spouses,
grandchildren and great grandchildren) is spread out over at least five states
that I know of, they travel to some pre-determined location for these reunions.
Of course, there are a few people who, like me, remain part of the clan even
though I'm no longer married into it. Plus, there are the "strays,"
who have been adopted into the family, who also attend. I'm entirely at home in
this large group gathering.
Today,
I attended a family reunion where I literally felt all alone with people all
around me. The group probably numbered about a hundred, though I didn't even
attempt a head count. My friend's mother likes to attend because she is
distantly related to this family and one or a couple people usually show up for
her to visit with. Other than that, my friend and her adult son (who also
attended), knew almost no one there.
My
description of this event and my time attending has nothing to do with the
people who organized it or attended. I don't judge people. I observed a group
of regular Americans having a great time. I'm sure they are all nice people. The
folks were all having a wonderful family time visiting and their conversations
were lively. I just wasn't one of them. I was an intruder. So, here I was, a
normally friendly, gregarious, outgoing, participating individual feeling like
a wallflower, or maybe more accurately, feeling invisible.
There
was, of course, a great feed (and somewhat organized feeding frenzy). I sat on
the sidelines and waited out the lines until everyone else had filled their
plates to overflowing. Frankly, I did my waiting in chow lines when I was in
the Air Force and prefer not to stand in a line, as an invisible entity,
awaiting my turn to fill my plate to overflowing. It's been my experience over
a lifetime of attending such events to know there was going to be ample food
remaining after the foraging hordes worked their way down the
"potluck" tables. I was right.
So, this is the scene in the photo. It was at a
park with a reasonably sized shelter in Barton, Maryland, a small, old, rural
town in the western panhandle of the state. It was somewhat overcast as
attested to by the photo. Fortunately, the humidity was at a reasonable
percentage and the temperature at mid-afternoon was in a comfortable mid 80's range. The food was good, ample and fattening. Total time involved in
the entire affair was about four hours. It certainly wasn't torture, but
ultimately, at my age, four hours is four hours. I hope to avoid any similar events in the future.